On November 4th it’ll mark 2 years since you left. In the 2 years I have only seen you 5 times. And after each time the little amount of hope I had inside of me would flutter a little bit larger.
Im not sure why I ever thought you would come back to me.
I constantly have you walking through my mind leaving trails but do you ever think of me?
The only time I can ever see you is when I close my eyes and goto sleep
because there, you’ll come back to me an kiss me as gently as you use too.
Here am I now
I feel a tightness in my throat and heavy hollow ball weighting down my heart
Those pictures of you and your ex girlfriend, now girlfriends tore my heart apart.
I wanted that to be me, why her?
Why would you go back to someone that cheated on you and messed with you and your heart so many times.
Knowing that you no longer think of me anymore breaks me
makes me wonder if I’ll ever find someone that opens me up
Just like I told you then, Its hard for me to develop feelings.
Yet somehow you made me have feelings for you
I dont know how
and now
I wonder if life is still worth living
its been 2 years
11 months since you last saw me, making me a promise to hang out with me again
but that never happened
If life ends before I see you again
congratulations on graduating my love
Tell your mother that all I want is to hug her
find someone that touches your soul, heart and mind like you did to me
and stay you
with love, always
-R
